So it's official. I'm without Jacob and Shannie for 2 whole days. And it's only been about 15 minutes, but I already don't know what to do with myself. This will be only the second time in Jacob's life that he's been away from me for a prolonged period of time. Not that 2 days is prolonged, but when your world revolves around something, or someone, when that centre of your world is not there, you can develop a feeling of emptiness.
On Friday, my wife's sister came down from up north. She's only about 2 hours away, but in Canada, anyone who lives past Toronto is up north. Last night the girls had a birthday party to attend, and I didn't arrive at the party until after midnight. Yet I was somehow able to get a bad hangover from the event. Which didn't help with the packing of clothes, food and the truck this morning. As I helped pack up the truck, I couldn't help but feel sad for some reason. I think it had to do with the 2 most important people in my life leaving without me, but they need a break too.
Of course when I asked Jacob to get ready for the trip back to his aunt's house, he immediately responded with "I don't want to go!" He still got ready on his own, but he insisted that he leave his DS at home because he wasn't happy. So I had to gather up his games and console and I snuck it into my wife's bag without him noticing. I think Jacob's resistance is in part due to the potential ODD diagnosis, but that's a whole other topic of discussion.
It's strange because as a parent of a child with an ASD, I've learned to adapt my parenting style to help Jacob the most. I've learned to control the way I talk, the things I say and my way of responding to Jacob when we speak. So now that Jacob's not here, I feel like I'm struggling to keep occupied. It's hard to believe it, but Asperger's has become such a big part of my life, that I almost need it around me in order to feel like I have purpose.
I don't know if that makes sense to everyone out there, but it makes sense to me. Even Chico has begun to mope around after searching the house for everyone. So it looks like I'm not the only one that's effected. I guess I'll just have to keep busy until Shannie and Jacob get back on Tuesday, when Asperger's will again be front and centre in my life.
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"It seems that for success in science and art, a dash of autism is essential." Dr Hans Asperger 1906-1980